SO! OH MY GOSH
like, take my love of Homestuck characters, and multilpy it by ten (and also divide the amount of characters by that same number XD), and you have my amount of feelings for the KS Girls.
For those of you that don't know, it's a visual novel, and it's kind of a dating sim, because there's choices you can make and that effects the route that you're taking.
Additionally, all of the girls have disabilities, and you (Hisao) have a heart condition.
There's Lilly, who's blind, and her friend Hanako who has crippling panic attacks and burns that cover half of her body.
There's Rin, who's missing her arms from the elbow up, and Emi, who is missing her legs from the knee down due to a car accident.
Finally, there's Shizune, a mute and deaf character. She has a 'sidekick' that is her translator named Misha.
I LOVE ALL OF THEM I SERIOUSLY CAN NOT HANDLE THE EMOTIONS THESE CHARACTERS CAUSE
I haven't been able to play through Lilly's route, because she's close to Hanako and it seriously hurts me to not be able to hang out with Hanako. Same with Rin, because I ADORE Emi. I feel like I'm cheating on the other character if I play with a different character. I don't know. It's hard to describe, you'd have to read it to understand maybe?
Anyways! MY friend Brendon introduced it to me, he's really cool. Spoiler Alert: I really like him, too. Not surprising, right? Because if it's a male apparently I have to like him >.> But I can beat him at soul calibur, and also he reads fan fiction, so as of now we're getting along quite nicely. The only problem with him is that he lives in a town about 30 minutes away from me, which means I'm spending a lot of money in gas to go see him. /sighs...
ANYWAYS!!! I'll stop talking about him. I'll talk about myself a bit now.
I've got (most) of my medication issues worked out- I've been on this particular brand and dose for about 4 weeks and I'm starting to feel better. Not 100%, but better.
Depression sucks. I'm just going to get that out right now. I always thought that depression was something... Different than what it actually is. When it struck me, it was seriously consuming my life. Every second of every day was thinking about ways to escape life. I stopped drawing, I stopped playing my instrument, I stopped reading. Everything I did was either 1) eating, 2) sleeping, or 3)taking a bath. That's seriously all I did for about 3 weeks of my life. I was not in a good place.
I'm coming to peace with my depression, though. I'm still not 'cured', but the issues that were causing my depression are slowly (I emphasize SLOWLY) dissapating. I've associated myself with the things and people that make me happy, and distanced myself from those that I know will cause my mood to sink. There's been some people that I've unwillingly had to invite back in my life, but surprisingly, these people don't effect me at all- accpeting them actually made things in my life easier. I don't have to hide from those people, because I know they aren't going to hurt me any further.
Maybe one day I'll be brave enough to tell y'all more deets about my personal life- becuase honestly, talking about it on the internet makes me feel better. Which is dumb, becuase I probably have 0 business talking about this with the internet, but it helps. My mouse has hovered on the idea of deleting this, but whatever.
Carpe Diem, motha fuckaas!! (O: